Paused to think.

hi all!

Just wanted to quickly write and update a little. I dont want to murder yet another blog. Life is okay, except 2 months of $0 paycheck yet I'm still surviving on my 5months' commissions. Splurging has been even more random than before, bad grumpy emotion kicks in and I'm already on my way to the mall.

Quit working a week back and I'm still on the hunt for a better motivational job though I have had my seat secured in another company of same line. Life's suck when people like me gets easily bored and when we've learn everything, we leave. But I have to admit, we performed our best everywhere and I never want to die working for someone.

And most of the time I'd doze off with Stallone on bed till I feel distraught wasting our days like that and not having a life at all. I've basically shifted so far from being the person I always wanted to be. Probably not knowing who i want to be anymore. I've undergo vast changes after college where things became indifferent and there's too much goals I want to achieve. Almost everything a man could possibly do.

Oh well, why make life a hard one when time is limited. However, somehow I know I've walked my path wrongly and my circle of knowledge cum experience isnt going any wider. Thought of furthering my studies in US/UK ; probably a new dimension in life but not until I find the courage to leave Msia. Sigh.words can't quite describe how indecisive I am.

On a brighter note, Stallone and I have been sweeter than ever. I've finally found the benefit of fights and arguments in relation to us since the both of us are much of an opinionated person, we voice out feelings that used to push us away. Other than that, we both love the company of each and I can't spend a second without him (not to exaggerate :p) .

I'm turning 21 in 4 weeks time. The boys threw in alot of ideas to this big day and it amazed me when they were each very focused in planning it out for me. Perhaps a trip to Maldives would be best to complete.. heh. Might probably just get a ticket to HK. Let's just keep the fingers crossed.

Looking forward to a new week and I'm wondering if I can rent a private beach or some private park for the celebration. Maybe just a nice pent suite for the night. So clever.



Talk soon!

Ta! x